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just a note, if you have the song 'Dirty Little Secrets' by the all-american rejects in your music library, i would appreciate it if you could kindly play it while reading this entry.


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if you don't mind, i would first like to share with you something that has got me smiling whenever i thought of porn. yes, porn.

it was something that i found really amusing upon my recent visit to a porn site.

yes, you heard me, recent.

so, i was watching a particular video under my all time favourite category..


'Lesbian' (i mean seriously, who could resist girl on girl action?)

and on that occasion, it just so happened that i was browsing through the comments section,

the usual stuff you'll read is people getting turned on by the video.

but there was this one guy who wrote a particularly familiar line,


"i just don't understand how girls have sex, unless they like scissor or something"


that quote i remember was by mr. garrison from South Park

and all i could think of after that was the guy scissoring his fingers with a bewildered look on his face.



that was the first time i ever laughed while browsing a porn site.

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it takes guts to confess one's fears,

personally, i do not have any problems with this because my reputation isn't cool enough to be tarnished.


BUT


it takes balls of steel to admit to one's dirty secrets,

this i believe is extremely tough for everyone including me for we all have a decent image to live up to.




what i am about to say has it's obvious consequences.

you might stop reading this blog,

or worse, picture me differently starting from today onwards.


but despite all that, i am still willing to confess.




That i am in fact a porn addict


i am ashamed of this,

and definitly not in anyway proud of it.


i could forgive myself for entering porn sites in my preteens out of curiousity

but i cannot forgive myself for relentlessly doing so up to date.

this has to stop.





i need a constant reminder

that by confessing of my shameful obsession to the public,

there will be millions of eyes watching my every click making sure i kept my word

each time i surfed the net.




i need a solution

and this might be it.





i am truly sorry to all who previously had a decent image of me in their mind,

my brother especially.


but rest assured,

i am not in a depressed state, in fact i've never felt better.

more importantly, there will be attempts to reverse this situation.

i'm not gonna lie, it is tough but most certainly not impossible.





this is the first time i'm writing a blog entry employing a homourless mindset,

i hope you will forgive me for that, and instead appreciate my audacity for once.




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tyson ritter says "who has to know?"

i say the people do when things get out of hand.

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End...


of this blog ?